Well hello there.

Sorry for those of you who have not been seeing my posts recently. There’s a big reason for that: I just haven’t had the motivation to be posting. I don’t know why, don’t ask me. Your guess is as good as mine.

But, in any case, looks like I’m back for a while. I’ve decided to take up blogging more as a hobby in my free time, maybe so I can start working out all those writing muscles that are as of yet unused in my brain. So, formally, I guess, here goes nothing: I’m back, folks. Not too sure what to be writing, because as of right now, I can barely function. My body is tired, and my…

Not much to say in this update, only that I have a wiki on my site now. Perhaps you should check it out, maybe become a writer? http://malformedxmlelement.com/wiki

That’s about all that it has been lately for me. Can’t say I’m complaining, I do get tired of sitting around the house… but, even so, it feels a bit… disappointing, I suppose one might call it.

Venturing out into the working world sounds like some amount of fun, this is true, but in all honesty, I am reluctant to do it. I am reluctant to leave the comfort of my house, the comfort of what I always do. However, leaving behind the person I used to be is starting to be a big feature of my life lately. I can’t stay comfortable and the same forever. There’s quite a bit out in the world waiting for me, and how odd…

Ah, to be coding again, it feels absolutely wonderful, at least, I think so. Though, I think this particular entry will have moer to do with other things, not just coding. So, let’s get to it, eh?

Lately, I have been talking with my friend, and we have been working on a Javascript evaluator for MSN. When I say we have been working on it, it’s actually pretty much done, we just tend to add more random useless features to it to pass the time. But, lately, it’s been slowly evolving, on my part at least, into a seperate AI project. Now, assuming it goes that far, I can foresee much trouble ahead. I have never worked with AI before, and…

Catchy title? So it would seem! Life has been sort of hectic. Not entirely hectic, just… busy. I haven’t had time to update my blog, but I hope to get back to consistent updating.  I’ve just been trying to deal with stuff, as it would seem. It’s all good it’s all bad, it’s all just plain life.

So, in the previous… weeks, I guess it would be, since I have updated, I have really been doing nothing, as it would seem. Not entirely, actually. I came across a copy of both Red Faction: Guerillas, and Prototype for my 360, so I have been playing video games a lot more lately. I have been taking a musical hiatus, sadly, and even a…

So, today wasn’t a very creative day. Haha, isn’t that what they all aren’t nowadays anyways? I tooled around a bit in FL Studio and came out with an interesting little track. It’s just a reworking of a composition I have been working on, with some percussion in it.

Now, I think it seems sort of incessant, but I actually enjoy it a bit, it has a thick texture to it, and I’d say, overall, it’s pretty good, though could use a lot of improvement, but thats the composition itself that should be improved, not the texture and overall sound of the reworking. So, without delay, I shall now say that the link is here for you to check out if such…

That’s pretty much all it is nowadays. Either pointless minutia to pass the time, school work, or the hype about graduation, about never having to go to high school again. Now, I’m experiencing extremely mixed feelings on this. I don’t know how I want to feel, I guess is the best way to put it…

But, just because that’s so, doesn’t mean I have to keep the thoughts on my mind twenty four hours a day. And yet, they stay on my mind, and I am made bitter by constant theorizing and contemplating, and yet I am made consistently upset and annoyed by everything that goes on around me. Perhaps I take everything in life too seriously…

Or perhaps things in life don’t take…

So, tonight has been spent realizing that I like odd music. Not really odd, but, you know, I had fun acquiring some old  music, along the lines of old school rap and what not. I don’t know why I find it so amusing. And then, of course, there’s some bhangra and reggaeton. I’ve realized that I enjoy some music that really deserves more commercial acceptance.

Then again, I think that some of what I have acquired doesn’t really deserve commercial acceptance and knowledge. I spent a large amount of time not only downloading that but getting music from my childhood, and I realized, for instance, how horrible and deplorable Bow Wow was back when he was Lil’ Bow Wow. I also…

You know, I always found it hard to ever picture my mother getting hurt, considering that she always takes good care of herself, and she is a nurse at that, worked in the medical field forever… It sort of caught me by surprise.

Earlier today, well, rather, tonight, my mom went to her friend’s house, as she ever so often does. She had a good time, I would assume, having dinner over there and hopefully enjoying herself overall. Of course, even the best days can go awry; some time later in the night, she was walking out to her car, when she tripped over the curb and landed in the gutter, breaking both of her ankles. It really scared me, to…

What follows is an introspection, a look into exactly what I am. Read on, if you so dare, and watch out for part 2, it will come eventually.

So, I recently read a blog by one of my friends, examining his psyche and thought processes, and I thought that was a pretty interesting idea…

Following that sort of example, I have decided to try and do the same thing. Granted, I don’t think it will work out well, I’m quite tired at the moment, so my judgment and thoughts will be impaired and flawed. But, it can’t really hurt to try. So, I suppose, t might be nice to look into the mind of me.

So, I think I should start to begin…