The Minutia of Day to Day Life
By Malformed XML Element. Filed in Miscellanea, Thought |Tags: boredom, introspection, late night, who knows
That’s pretty much all it is nowadays. Either pointless minutia to pass the time, school work, or the hype about graduation, about never having to go to high school again. Now, I’m experiencing extremely mixed feelings on this. I don’t know how I want to feel, I guess is the best way to put it… But, just because that’s so, doesn’t mean I have to keep the thoughts on my mind twenty four hours a day. And yet, they stay on my mind, and I am made bitter by constant theorizing and contemplating, and yet I am made consistently upset and annoyed by everything that goes on around me. Perhaps I take everything in life too seriously… Or perhaps things in life don’t take me serious enough. Or, even so, perhaps the world itself is just far too serious as it is. If the world were to be a bit more lighthearted, I think it would be a better place. There wouldn’t really be a need for any of this confusion, any of this pain, any of what goes on in the world. All there would be, in theory, is happiness, and acceptance, assuming everyone could determine exactly the nature of any statement thrown at them. Of course, that takes all the fun out of rhetoric, now doesn’t it? I have no clue why I’m even writing about most of this. I’m just sort of passing the time, I guess. I’ve heard much news from my friends, from the world around me, and I grow to resent it, and myself, with each passing moment… but I also grow conscious of it and myself with each passing moment. Is the consciousness a fair trade for the confusion, pain, and resentment? I do believe so. The consciousness is soon to beget knowledge, if given the proper amount of time. So… what do I do? I smile, and function as best I can. I’ll get what I want some day. |
Monday, June 1st 2009 at 10:42 am |
To get what you want, you’d have to determine what you want, which is impossible. The best you could do is envision some sort of notion of what you want, which would inevitably be flawed.
And that’s assuming you want something at least somewhat defineable, such as a large quantity of money. Say you want something like “happiness”, which then becomes utterly undefineable. It’s quite easy to gain the physical equivalent of happiness, but most people will reply they want “long term happiness”, and then we’re back to a vague concept.
Oh well, enough with the metaphyiscal ramblings.
Your 2nd to last sentence sums it up. You either run the race or drop out, and if you’re still running then just do the best you can.